Stephanie Whitehead – Being Lost

One thing I notice as I plow through my senior year of college is that some people know where they are going and plug on towards their goals and dreams and others, the vast majority of the people I know, really don’t know what they want. These people make me think about how we talked in class about the concept of being “lost.” One person in particular strikes me as being lost. She has always been an over achiever, a grade ahead of her age, excels at everything she attempts, takes 7-9 classes a semester and has three jobs. She has always had a goal and always known what she wants and where she was planning on going after college. However, lately she has been unhappy. While she still talks about going to Washington D.C. after college and getting a job in the government (for she has made connections that could help her) she sounds less convinced and less enthusiastic. She was going to go to graduate school for her masters and possibly her doctorate and yet in the past month she has decided that she really has no desire to do this. She wants to be with her family in the mountains and fall back into her high school days with her large group of friends and enjoy things as they have always been. Now that her friends are not coming home for breaks and truly “leaving the nest” to find their places in this world, she finds herself alone and she is confused. She is utterly disoriented and has no idea what is happening and as she scrambles to re assert her cosmos out of this chaos she flounders.